Hi… I’m not even sure how to start this, because asking for help is something I’ve always tried to avoid. But I’m at a point in my life where pretending I’m okay is doing more harm than good.
This last year and a half has changed my life in ways I never imagined. Losing my childrens father (suspicious death)— and then fighting every single day to find out what truly happened to him — has drained me emotionally, mentally, and financially. The kids and I didn’t just lose him. We lost the stability and support he brought into our lives. I’ve been doing everything I can to hold things together on my own, but the truth is, I’m struggling.
When their father died, I was in the middle of finishing school to become a veterinary technician. I pushed myself to finish, even while grieving, even while my world was falling apart, because I wanted a better life for my kids and for myself. Since then, I’ve been working at the humane society. I love my job, and I love caring for the animals… but the truth is, we don’t get paid enough for the emotional and physical work we do. I’m proud I finished school, but even with that, I’m still not getting very far. I’m doing everything right, and somehow it still feels like I’m barely keeping my head above water.
On top of everything with their father, life keeps hitting from every angle:
My car keeps breaking down.
My dishwasher broke.
My dryer broke.
I’m recovering from a hysterectomy because of uterine cancer.
The medical bills from my surgery — and from my sons surgeries — feel endless. I’m behind on more than I want to admit.
Sports are the one thing that still makes my son feel connected to his dad, he has so much talent I bought him a good pair of cleats — $300 — because I wanted him to have something that made him feel confident again. They were stolen off the football field at the first game, first win, with a hand full of touch downs. Watching him try to act like it didn’t hurt destroyed me.
I’m working as much as my body will let me, but the reality is heartbreaking: even food is tight right now. And Christmas is coming. My kids deserve something good after all the trauma they’ve lived through, but I honestly don’t know how I’m going to make that happen this year. Any christmas help deadlines have already came and gone.
This is the hardest thing I’ve ever had to write, but I am asking for help with:
Christmas gifts or support for my kids
Groceries or food assistance
Help with car repairs, my broken dishwasher, and my dryer
Any guidance or support with the legal situation surrounding my kids’ trust that they where left beneficiaries of. I just can’t afford to get it in to probate court.
I’m exhausted. I’m overwhelmed. But I am still trying — every single day — to give my kids stability, love, and a future that they deserve. If anyone out there feels called to help in any way, I cannot express how much it would mean to us.
- Listing ID: 15073
- My City: Logan