On April 18th, After I had returned home from working I went and checked myself into the hospital. I hadbeen bad for over a year with blood pressure reading over 153. It got to 173/150, with 20lbs of water weight and not being able to get in and out of avehicle without have to pause to catch my breath because I felt I was being suffocated. I was diagnosed with Pulimonary Arterial Hypertension and Right side Heart Failure. I was within days of death. But with a catheritization, I was told Of my rare and incurable illness and that I have to be transferred to another hospital for medication that is only going to slow its progression. Im a 48 year old single mother who struggles to make ends meet and had no savings. I could not go back to work. I applied for disability…I had to move home with my 86 year old parents; whom I am now their caretaker. I cant leave even if I could. Ive had no income since April. The only thing Ive had is food stamps at $250 a month. That’s now stopped. And Im somewhere in the application process with my disability claim. That is going nowhere too with the government shutdown. Ive struggled the last 3 years to have a bare minimum Christmas for my family and swore this year would be different! Its different all right! Now I can even afford the bare minimum. Ive done a odd job here n there to cover a little of my bils…just enough to not loose my truck or ins.  Or phone but still very much behind. My medication is very costly and ahcccs just denied coverage of it. I dont blame them. Its $14,000.00 a month. 

There are days I pray for it to all end and wake up from this bad dream…..but it never does. With the holidays coming quick my spirit is sinking like quick sand. I guess you could say I need an angel! Im not one to ask for help. Im used to figuring it out and making the best of it. But not being able to work, My hands are tied and I dont know what to do. 

I ran across this today on 2-1-1. I figured that I have nothing to loose. 

If your reading this to the end….thank you for your compassion. My story is probably that of many. Im no more deserving than the next. I could tell you my life story and the struggles ive endured…..but that is not who I am, there just things that happened and made me. Today, I am a mother, a daughter, a sister, a aunt, a caretaker and lost. But my parents need me now more than ever. You never think about your parents being fragile and old, and there is no plan between siblings as to who is going to take care of them….it just happened. Their minds are going and sometimes I think my whole life has led to this point right here. Im exactly where I am supposed to be. Because, my siblings dont see it or get it…..mom and dad need help. I see it and my dad finally admits it. I can only be so much help with no help financially right now. But I take care of them the best I can, the irony is I probably need more help than they do with my illness but after all they have done for me, its the least I can do. My daughter…she lost her job, moved home and now we are 6 dogs deep, 6 cats deep and the 4 of us.

I hope to find a angel who can make a small donation to help for the holidays or till I can get approved or denied disability. Then that will either keep me afloat til my illness takes over, or if denied, idk….ill loose all hope. For now, I hope I find you and That Ive touched your heart in some small way. I will forever be indebted and grateful for you.

Thank you for reading this and my apologies for rambling on. God Bless You!

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• My City: Scottsdale

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