Hello, my name is Donna. I am in desperate need of reconnecting with my 13 year old little girl. Long story short, me and her father divorced when she was 2. We split her 50/50. Everything was perfect. Then…. my sister passed away suddenly. Which that is a whole other story in itself, but basically, I moved from FL to CA when I was 21. So I am away from all my family whom reside in MI and FL. My sister passed away in FL and I took it very hard. It was very hard to mourn her thousands of miles from my family, who all were able to mourn her together. I had to figure it out alone. No one to talk about her to that knew her to keep her alive, And honestly I didn’t know how. Still learning actually! But unfortunately I was already battling depression and anxiety. So I numbed my feelings with pain killers. Which lead me down deeper roads as my addiction and shame grew more and more. Basically I lost everything slowly one by one. The job, the house, then the car. Which lead to my final fall I got arrested. I was so ashamed That i told my Ex, I needed some time to get my crap together and get back on my feet. I could not care for our daughter the way she needed at that time (she was almost 5). I assumed that he would allow me to step away and get it together, and then get back to our 50/50 like it was prior. It would just take some time. That is what I would of definitely done if the tables were turned for him. But never the less, he didn’t. He made it so difficult for me to remain in contact with her. He acted as if I was this horrible monster that was unforgiveable. Taking our issues and mixing it with my motherhood issues. He basically pulled the rug out from under me. When I really needed some help and family support, I felt stabbed in the back. So in the dark place that I was, I just kept running, but the opposite way. As I began to believe maybe, I am not suitable to be in her life. Maybe I was bad for her. I was able to see her on her 9th birthday at the end of November. Because I showed up to the house and pretty much gave no choice but to let me see my baby girl. We had such a great visit. We were able to actually visit a lot that week after too. Until suddenly he tells me he was moving to ID come the Holidays. I was devastated. But yet, I had no say in the matter. He ended up moving within the next week suddenly without letting me say goodbye or even get a new address of the new location. He did not even notify the courts. Technically, kidnapped her. I really lost it then. And had another nervous breakdown and spiral to rock bottom. After a couple years of searching and searching and also getting treatment, which I am 18 months sober now. I think I finally found an address and a location of her where abouts in ID. I am currently living in AZ, which is a 12 hour drive to where they live in ID. I really need help with either renting a car or buying a very cheap car to be able to drive up there and find her. And tell her I love her and how much I have missed her. And how I have not stopped looking for her. My 81 year old grandma asked as her last wish that before she dies she must be able to see her first great-grandchild one more time before she goes. I just need help with the travel expenses like gas and motels stays for about a week in ID. And then from there I am hoping that me and her father can work out some agreement on future custody and visitation. I hope enough time has passed and he has learned that she needs her mother and I need her. I pray that will be the outcome. As honestly I do not know what else to do at this point. I thank you for your time and consideration for help with my situation. And i would be forever grateful with any help towards making it a reality to see my girl again. Thank you.
- Listing ID: 10834
- My City: phoenix