Hello, Been going thru a lot lately and still $180.00 short on my December rent (not asking for that as it’s too much to ask of anyone!) anyways, all my money went to rent and bills to keep us afloat and well it left no budgeting room for Christmas, worst case scenario my oldest already knows about Santa and my youngest is 1 and won’t have too much memory around this holiday.
I would ultimately love to decorate for them if we had decorations and give the 3 of them each a gift or pajamas, I feel like a failure as a mother and I am finding it hard to be happy or cheerful this holiday knowing I am failing at everything for them.
Since my dad passed I feel like Christmas is just a sad holiday for me since he passed a few days before Christmas 2 years ago which still feel like yesterday.
Aside from that, I also don’t think Christmas is a complete necessity, it’s nice, and all.. But were good at making do.
So honestly, with all that being said, I am ashamed to stoop to begging, but I mainly need help with diapers and wipes. My baby wears size 4 diapers, any wipes will do as long as safe for baby’s skin.
With all the bills that came up, I paid most of them like I said, minus the $180 I’m trying to get before 15th by doing odd jobs.. well I spaced off buying a box of wipes/diapers to get me by until the next pay date and now I’m literally wondering what to do.
Even if someone could barrow me something to help us, I promise to pay it back? My kids and I would be so thankful.
I am in a bind and I hate asking for help, but I literally feel so stressed and overwhelmed with no one helping me.
I used to wonder why people got depressed around holidays and felt down in the dumps and now I know exactly why. What once used to be happy for us, has now turned into a let down for my daughter’s and a burden that is so hard to take on.
Trying to look at the positive side of things but finding it hard to come out of this sadness and it hurts even more having to pretend or fake being happy for the kids sake.
If you’ve read this far, Thank you and God Bless. xoxo
- Listing ID: 11525
- My City: SALT LAKE CITY