Widow in need of a Blessing after 7 years of being alone and struggling but holding on to faith.
I have been a widow for 7 years now I found my husband of 30 years on a Sunday morning 4 days before his 61st birthday. I opened the door to our bedroom after falling asleep the night before in our TV room he placed a blanket on me and retired to our Master an it looks as if he just took his last breath and his life was over I opened the door that Sunday morning and my life changed and will never be the same. I have been alone after moving to my present location in Arizona. I lived in the Bay Area for 46 years of my life. We had more birthdays more Easters more Christmases together than even with our parents. We lost our parents siblings and supported each other through it all. We had each other and life was amazing. Always great Christmas time. Now for the a last 7 Christmases I have been alone. I have struggled but God gave me the strength to carry on. I worked in the medical field so i spent these years serving others through the pandemic, being there and losing patients and supporting them and their families. Somehow it made me feel better than to complain about what I was going through. I have not had the time to grieve his Brother in law and niece came after he passed away and wanted everything so I battled them in court for 3 1/2 years paying attorney and court cost left me nothing after that was over. I still carried on I have not been well. I almost had a heart attack myself and was in the hospital for 7 days blood pressure 263/116 after the sixth day I could eat and drink they did not have to do surgery Thank God. Now I am unemployed as of October I cannot afford my rent or my APS and cannot afford my medications which I take 8 different ones. I have friends that have tried to help but they have their own concerns and families. I just got a 5 day notice and they will start eviction proceedings. I have been a good neighbor to everyone even the animals in the Apartment complex. I don’t want to be homeless, I am afraid I mean really afraid. I just need help to get my rent paid and be able to afford my medication to make it through to the fist of the year and that would set me on to a path of being ok. I have a new job. God is amazing I was on the phone with my sister and I had been on line filling out applications someone clicked on the phone and I looked and it was a company I had applied I told my sister I would call her back and i tried to call the company back they promised me they never called me but then the manager ask can you come in for a interview today at 1:45pm I said yes. I went and she said again she did not call. She pulled my application and told me you have the job. This was truly a God Thing. I start this week but I cannot pay my rent, medications or APS and my food is low I have been eating what I have in my cabinet and that is not much. All I ask is a hand up to try and climb this mountain. I have never been in this situation before and I am afraid .All I need is someone to give me a chance to get on my feet and I can work and make it I just need to have the rent paid and medication and APS and food and I will work through Christmas. I don’t need material things I just need a helping hand that be willing to hold my hand so I can carry on and be willing to help God to give me a blessing in my life to carry on. I just want to be happy and be able to help others to be able to be active in church and have a roof over my head. I have never ask for anything but his time I cannot see past this need. It is my Prayer that 2Hands helps God to help me Please. I want to sleep without fear. I want to breathe again and know that I am carried for. It is not easy being a widow. Death is not easy grief hurts and it is painful then you add the treat of being homeless takes the air out of me. I am a good person and I am there for others I just want someone to please please be there for me this one time and then I will repay it by helping someone else in need. Thank you for allowing me to share this testimony
- Listing ID: 11543
- My City: Scottsdale