Hello I am asking for help to reunite with my children we were separated due to a divorce I was domestically abused when my family talked me into leaving they all said that they got my back they’ll be there to help and when it came down to me actually leaving I was left standing on the side of the road with all of my belongings confused I have two children technically three the two boys are mine and we made the decision that it would be best that they stay with family because it’s not safe outside and I can’t take care of them properly I could take care of them but not properly so they were left with family and then the girl was not my biological daughter and she was placed in a child’s safety House in another state we haven’t been together in 4 years now the girl I know there’s not much I can do but the boys I’ve fought very hard to get stable and back on my feet due to the lack of support in any form emotionally financially etc I have not been able to do that three separate occasions over the last 4 years I came into vehicles that were either taken from me or parted out on me and it seems like every time I get close it gets ripped away I also was at one point almost in a house and ready to move my kids in and there was a shooting in my front yard I had at that point not worked so hard just to watch my children die in the living room because of people outside they have no responsibilities or respect so the child that I had staying with me at that time I’m sent back to family because I didn’t want those problems and I left the place I’ve been sleeping outside since I do not have a vehicle I do walk more than 5 mi to see them and it’s because I cannot get a ride there’s no miles that would not stop me. I’m not aware exactly if I’m supposed to be asking for the funding or the information or a vehicle I’m not aware exactly what to ask for my mother had raised me that if I don’t have it do not ask for it so I don’t and I’m confused as into what to say because of that right there I don’t want to say that my pride is too high I just don’t know how and after so many people that say they love me letting me down it feels silly to ask strangers but I ran out of options and I almost feel desperate I’m missing the most important part I feel to these kids in their life and I know they get bigger things would be different but I’m missing the little stuff the school stuff the first boyfriend girlfriend stuff the bicker in between the two of them .. things that can’t be replaced and I know as adults they can come and then can we see each other but I don’t want to miss the growing up part and I’ve already missed so much so I guess I’m asking for any help that I can get I’m scared of everything I’m scared of everyone it’s easy for me to talk to text this but if we were standing face to face I couldn’t get a word out I only be able to put my head down no eye contact I feel ashamed for the things that I’ve lived through . I blame myself mostly because I don’t have the stability in life to do it on my own and I am made to feel like I should be able to do that and I cannot I would be grateful for even just simple information just help any help that I could possibly come across I guess I’ll end this with thank you for taking the time to read I don’t know if I was too bleak or left too much out the big red letter said not to put too much in but to make it clear so I guess the final word would be I should probably work for a vehicle so I can be reliable ..thank you again
- Listing ID: 9453
- My City: Belleville